little slut

so once again i'm in agony. i really need a friend and there is no one. my kid is trying to grow up so fast. doing things some adults shouldn't even be doing. cell phone for her birthday is biting me in the ass. i have my sister for a daughter. can't talk to her dad. terrified to make a move cuz of this. want to creep back into my cave and never come back out.

how is it that a person as sweet as me has no friends. i'd give my right breast for a friend. those who know me... know this. how come i don't have any one in my corner. why am i so hard to love. for that matter, why is it so hard to find a job. shit is just hard lately. perhaps i was just sailing around way too long and now the shit has hit the fan and it's time for me to get to work.

this is good stuff... i know. but damn why did it call for me to see my kid acting provactively. why must i have that image in my head haunting me. i guess it's the spit in the mud.