ain't nuttin

not that i'll ever get married but i'm making a mental note to self just in case. do not have a wedding unless i can afford everything... do not ask people to be in your wedding that are poor because it is inconsiderate. i've spent at least $500 on this girls wedding and i'm just a bridesmaid. wtf!

it has crossed my mind recently that all of my friends have used me. i haven't gotten any usage out of them, but they have gotten more than enough from me. what is that all about? should i ask people for stuff more often? how does one go about that. i just have way too much pride.

on another note. mr man is living it up. that son of a bitch was putting up new gutters and has a damn sub zero stainless steel fridge. he don't even cook! he is gonna get his, in a major way. what sucks is that i don't really believe that. is it considered wrong when you aren't intentionally doing it to hurt someone, or is wrong, wrong. he SHOULD know better but maybe not. who the hells knows!